2002-12-02 - 11:41 p.m.
So, i'm tired.
I'm tired of wondering if people are mad at me, constantly worrying that I've hurt or offended someone else. I do it to myself, but I do it too often.
I create situations in the hours alone.
I can't wait for this internship, it's like an oasis of "finally having a life". Being in the city, being with people who have some sort of innate coolness [that I know is only a myth], trapping myself between the big brick buildings, forced to make friends.
I recess into me a lot more, and I can't determine if this is detrimental. On one hand, I find myself conciously defining and noticing my actions a lot more.
I can't think of what the other hand is now, I lost my thought.
poof
Anyhow, sometimes the air feels different when people aren't sure how to act. Occasionally, it's a comfort. I'm not the only one.
But mostly I'd like a little guidance.
~j
+Kings of Convinience+
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